Oh Brother.

I mentioned in this entry that I've been enjoying traveling alone, meeting new people and seeing new places. I've discovered my love for the islands and the west coast. I'd love to see more and travel a lot. I know in the future, New Jersey is probably not where I'll end up staying. I'll admit it, while I'm so comfortable with my friends back at home, sometimes I don't feel like I belong back at home for a lot of reasons. I really don't know where I fit still, but I'm having a great time figuring it out. There's people that I'd miss terribly though, and those people are Brother 1 and Brother 2.

Brother 1 (aka, Kevin, aka simply "Brother"), is my twin and one of my best friends. I can tell Brother anything and everything without feeling self-conscious, or odd about it. I'm only minutes older then Brother, but I do like to tease him to "respect his elders". We've shared birthdays, classes at school and even some friends, all while being our own people. Both of us share a love for movies and other various forms of pop culture. I can tell when Brother is not himself, and he can tell when I'm not myself either.

I credit Brother for introducing me to my love of music. When I was younger, all I wanted to do was read books. (Not that there's anything wrong with that, but I didn't branch out my interests) When we were about 8 years old, Brother asked for a tape player and cassettes for his birthday. I thought it was an odd gift for him to ask for, but once he started listening to music, he never stopped. When we were in grade school, Brother would take his tape player and blast music in his room, all while talking to me about his day. I wasn't interested in all of the subjects that he discussed, but that didn't matter. I loved talking to Brother. As we talked, sometimes he would interrupt and point out what song was playing, who it was by and even what instruments were in the background. I didn't have any favorite artists that I liked, but I did (most of the time) enjoy what he listened to.

When we were 13, he graduated from his now worn tape player to a CD player with big speakers. I liked that CD player. It lasted FOREVER. By this point, I enjoyed songs. I still wasn't sure what music I liked on my own, but I was getting there. It was around this age that Brother began creating his own music. He was learning guitar and bass and he knew how to sing. I don't believe he thought much of it, but he was very talented. We hung out with our own groups of friends by this point. There were many ups and downs throughout our lives. My health deteriorated greatly in my young teens, and although I don't remember much on how it felt, I remember being in a lot of pain. Kevin brought a great comfort to me, because the routine was always consistent. I wasn't always in school. I didn't always see our friends. I was in and out of X Ray offices and had too many doctors and hospital visits. But at the end of the day, there was always music.

In adulthood, the setting changed and of course we're no longer school aged children. But once or twice a week, I went to Kevin's for dinner. He now plays his Ipod, and I show him my own favorites. Thanks to Brother, I have a very electric taste of my own. Without his help, I don't think I would have ever come across my love for folk music and acoustic guitars. The artists I listen to, everything from Bob Dylan, the Everly Brothers, Feist, Schuyler Fisk....that's all due to him. He's now amazing at guitar, (owns about 8 of them I believe).

Brother always looks out for me too. Sometimes I think he worries about me, although I don't think he'll admit it. I pretend I don't notice him peeking out his front window, making sure I get to my car okay if I leave at night. I know it must have not been easy when I announced I was going to Hawaii, because it's awfully hard (if not impossible), to look out for me from 6,000 miles away. Still, Brother always encourages me, no matter what kind of spot I might be in. He believes I can do anything, even when I don't believe it. He also calls out my BS so to speak, and I do to him as well. I can say things to him that no one else can say and he won't get mad. That's Brother.

Brother 2 (aka, Dan) is also amazingly talented. He's free spirited, an artist, and always beats to his own drum. He can make anything into art. He can paint, sculpt, draw and is awesome as photography. I too, love photography, and I owe Brother 2 for my interest in it, but I only wish I could be as good as Dan:

I admire Brother 2 because when he wants to do something, he just does it. He doesn't worry about what people think of him. He doesn't worry if people disagree with his ideas. Dan is Dan. Last year, he and his girlfriend Gen took a 6 week trip all over Europe. I always admired that trip. I think it's one of the reasons I have this blog and made my own travel adventure to Hawaii in the first place.

I would be doing a disservice to this entry if I didn't include another amazing person in our family, and that is Gen:

Gen has been part of our little group for so long that I don't remember when she wasn't. She too, is artistic. She's also a fashion maven, a dancer and a dance teacher. I wasn't able to go to one of the plays she was choreographing, because I was here. One of the best things about Gen is how fun she is. She has an awesome sense of humor and you're guaranteed to have a blast when you hang out with her. I should mention that she is this blog's #1 fan. Really. She said so.

And so, while it's been hard to be away from them, I do feel lucky that I'm surrounded by them. I feel lucky to have siblings in my lives. Sometimes I don't feel as smart, as talented, or mature as they are. (Most of the time, I feel like the younger sibling, rather then the other way around) But Brothers 1 and 2 accept me as I am, flawed and all.

These are my brothers and they are good.

I'm not sure what talents I possess, or what value I bring to people, but I know what these people bring to me. I can only hope I'll continue to be inspired by them and the rest of my family (like Dad and Lynda) as I continue to take baby steps out into this brand new world. I know how proud I am of them.

I hope to make them proud.

festivals, festivals, festivals.

A couple of days ago, I planned to go to a bunch of places where (some) activities were only taking place in May. First, I decided to go to the Honolulu Swap Meet. The Swap Meet takes place every Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday, but I couldn't pass it up any longer. It's a huge event at Aloha Stadium. From 8am to 3pm, booths are set up chalk full of new and used goods that you can buy or trade. Bargaining is FIERCE and you have to be good at it. I'm not really, but I consider myself a beginner. Besides, it's so much fun to explore anyway.

You can buy just about anything. From purses, to shot glasses, clothing to baby gear, plants, fruit, food. You name it, they have it. It's kind of like the biggest garage sale ever.

 

Aunt Lynn was speaking to someone at work about my wish to go. Her colleague's advice? "If you want the good stuff, you gotta go when they're setting up at 5." Five. As in, five in the morning. YEAH RIGHT. I may love this sort of thing, but I don't love it that much. Getting up that early means I'd probably have to board the bus by 4, which means I'd have to get up at 3am. I just don't have the strength, but I admire how hardcore some people are. You have to pause and marvel at the motivation. Because of my insanity, (What is wrong with me? It's crazy to get there by ten) I missed out on the garage sale items. That's okay though, I wasn't TOO interested. I made out like a bandit anyhow, and all of the stuff I bought came at a bargain. Can't tell you what those said items are right now friends and fam, because they're going home to you.

Don't worry. I'd never keep stuff on a bench like that on purpose. One of the bags broke.

As for me, I found these:

Finally! Rings that fit my fingers! I'm not a fancy girl. I don't care for fancy rings or diamonds. (These are made of stone or something) I just want costume jewelry that fits. I would like to take a moment though to say to that future guy in my life that I am a size 3/4. And if you happen to propose, I'd prefer it if you got me a big drooly puppy instead of a big rock, but I would really, really appreciate the added bonus of said puppy included with non fancy ring. Just sayin. What? No I haven't thought about that. Not at all.

Anyway.

After the swap meet, it became too sweltering hot to walk around the statium, so I left for the Honolulu Book and Music Festival.

I love books. I always have. As I've gotten older, life has gotten in the way of me sitting down for 5 to 6 hours at a time with my nose in one, but I still enjoy a good novel. The Honolulu Book and Music Fest takes place once a year in May for two days. There's all kinds of genres to look at. From books on Hawaiian culture, spirital books, fiction and non fiction novels and the Hawaii PBS kids tent.

Yeah, y'all. Clifford was there. Don't tell my nephews Dean and Matt, but we're BFF. We go WAY back. In fact, I remember reading his books when ~*I was their age*~ Caillou was there too, but I didn't want to talk to him. I hate to tell you this boys, but he's kind of annoying, and frankly, he's just weird. Don't play with him. His giggle will drive you up a wall, he whines till he gets his way and his sister Suzie ALWAYS seems to be sick. I think she may have leprosy.

After bidding adou to my PBS friends, I grabbed some lunch and listened to a live concert. I have no idea who was performing, because the schedule on the Hawaii Book and Music Fest is incorrect. The music was pretty and engaging though. I'll try and find out who was playing for you guys.

The musician was onstage was also pretty funny. When one of the strings on his steel guitar broke, he just quips: "That's okay, I got plenty more," making the audience laugh.

I should add that over at the Barnes and Noble tent was Roseanne Barr, signing her autobiography. I'd have taken a picture for you, but she left pretty quickly, not staying for the entire event. (In fact, the schedule said she'd be there from 3pm to 4pm, but she left a little before 3:30.) She did buy a book and stand next to me though. (I know, I know, wow.)

My most favorite part of the day though? Heading back on the bus with my treasures and going home to relax in the pool. Pretty rad weekend, if I do say so myself. I managed to get one of the musical performances on video for you to enjoy. Sorry for the shaky camera quality. It evens out after a few seconds. It was pretty windy. Aloha all!